She is a 'Pollyannic Cynic. These terms are such contradictions but best describes the complicated life of this woman. She is a Pollyanna because she believes the best in each of us. She trusts with her whole heart and tends to give the shirt off her back if need be. All of her adult life, she supported the needs of family, husband - even after divorce; friends and foes. And all her life she has ended up on the bottom rung of MESS (Miserable, Evil, Sinister, Stuff). You get my drift. She's a cynic because of her pessimistic views about self and what she considers her failures. She is in complete agreement with those who reprove her ideals; belittle her success; and literally take her esteem away. She takes all their criticism to heart, blaming self and believing their mind-set is true. She loses what little sanity that remained in her life to those claimed of love. Her husband hurt her in the name of love. The law called it assault with intent. Her best friend assaulted her but believed it was love. She and only a few close associates know the truth. And when the truth is revealed, it flared up in a most unexpected manner. Again she blamed herself for the outcome. You can only hope every thing turns out to her advantage - but - you never know.