Falling for my girlfriend's twin brother wasn't what I had in mind when I hired him to be my son's nanny.

Working on my family's cattle ranch, the hours are long, and sometimes unpredictable, so when my regular nanny quits, leaving me in a pinch, I have to think fast.

In walks Ash Tudor.

My opposite in almost every way.

He's cheerful and bubbly, has horrible taste in music, and does yoga in my yard almost every morning in the tightest shorts I've ever seen.

Not that I'm looking.

But it's none of those things that have me scratching my head and second guessing everything I thought I knew about myself.

No... it's the fact that he's a him and I can't seem to keep my eyes away, no matter how confusing that may be.

I'm nearly thirty, and never once have I looked at another man the way I catch myself looking at him.

The feelings and urges growing inside of me make no sense, and then when he gets a special delivery to the house of items he plans to use on himself, I can't stop imagining him doing just that... Or imagining me using them on him.

But confusion and curiosity aside, I can't fall into bed with my son's nanny.

Doing so would be reckless and irresponsible.

No matter how tempting it may be.